is it weird...

to be extremely happy right now???
i mean... i have this amazing outlook on life right now. as soon as i walked into my house, i realized i had a wonderful day, but spent it moping around. english class has seemed to have a great effect on me. ive decided that instead of getting mad over little things, im going to be grateful for all of them.

for example: i was extremely excited that my mom is cooking macaroni and cheese tonight. AND i laughed hysterically at my cats playing with a pipe cleaner. im not sure that my life could get any better right now =]


--love ashleegrace

i love it when...

haha justkidding...
i HATE it when...

you apologize to someone very sincerly and then they say they accept it and yet then they go off and talk behind your back with people who you used to be close with. so for all i know, secrets that i so confidently told them, thinking that they wouldnt talk about, are probably spread all over freaking caddo mills. and now, none of them will answer my texts.

oh well... who cares anyway? i think having a few select people i can talk to beats having a million friends and being "popular." after all, jesus is the ultimate best friend=]

im still amazed...

at how fake everyone always seems...
its like you get to know someone and then they turn out to be someone you never knew at all.
all i want are real people. im done with fakeness.
and i know that next year is going to be even harder
because the further i get in high school, the faker people become =/

--ashleegrace

i can't believe...

how much everything has changed. i feel like a different person now.
people always say that the past will make you stronger, but you never realize how much stronger you are. i've just come to that realization today. hopefully i have the strength enough to speak my mind in a few weeks. =]
this could be interesting.

--ashleegrace

tomorrow...

im going to talk to her.
im going to renew a ruined friendship.
im going to tell her how i really feel.
im going to tell her she was more beautiful before.
im going to tell her how much i miss her.
im going to tell her that i love her.
im going to tell her im sorry.

im gonna talk to becca.

(thanks car)

--ashleegrace

devistated... until now =]

so today kinda sucked.
i feel so distant from my best friend now...
i hope we can talk about it.

but now...

i might go up to kentucky and see my bubba. :D
(i cant tell you how long its been since ive been able to say that)

love,
--ashleegrace

lyrics =]

forgive me i'm trying find,
my calling, i'm calling at night.
i don't mean to be a bother,
but have you seen this girl?
she's been running through my dreams,
and it's driving me crazy it seems,
i'm gonna ask her to marry me.

"remembering sunday" by all time low

i love this song!! =]

-ashleegrace

forgiveness is the ultimate reward =]

yay!!!
have you ever done something horribly wrong to a person?
well... i know its happened to me multiple times.
but now i can put some of that behind me.
i've learned to apologize to people and, so far...
its worked out great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i now have the trust of an old friend back.
ily Nolan!!! hahahaha

-love, ashleegrace

random conversation in youth...

ok... so youth today was pretty dang funy.
well... at least i thought it was.
the conversation we had went something like this:

chris: ok so today we're going to talk about friendships.
*chris explains a story about two girls that remind me a lot of me and carleigh*
chirs(later): what would you say to your friend if they were dressing like a... derogatory term...?(he meant slut)
*silence*
me: i would straight up tell her that she was dressing like a (derogatory term) and then tell her to change.
*i get a few funny looks*
me(to cj): i guess they've never heard me and carleigh talking.
cj: what do you mean?
me: i mean that she would do the same for me.
cj: you mean she would call you a skank?
me: yep.
cj: what kind of a friend does that?
me: carleighmaddisonaltom.

--ashleegrace

ok...

so far in my life ive quit:
guitar
band
and now athletics.
i just wanna find something i can stick to...
=/

--ashleegrace

kinda scared...

im kinda nervous for tomorrow.
i finally asked my mom if i could...
ad she said yes...
but now that i can,
i kind of dont want to.
this is so confusing!
i dont know what to do...
tomorrow should be... fun.
not!

--ashleegrace

well that was kinda stupid...

i went to the nurse today...
because i was having pain in my side.
she told me it could be my appendix...
(im not sure if i spelled that right)
so we made me a dr.s appointment at 4:15 today.

so i get there and the doctor pokes at my side alot...
(and then i peed in a cup =/ )
and she told me it was prolly just a strained muscle
which is a far cry from my appendix...
but she said it could have felt like it was my appendix that was hurting.
so now i have to go back to school and tell coach its just a muscle strain...
which should be fun...
i just hope shell laugh rather than think i lied...
(cuz i didnt, i just didnt know)
and now i have to sit out in athletics tomorrow... (again)
and i just hope i can work out monday...
cuz just sitting around kinda sucks =/

well, peace.
--ashleegrace

i may have become obsessed with blogging...

i seem to post a blog everytime im online.
but anyway...
i still feel horrible.
and i cant have anymore asprin for an hour
so im upset =/
but i think im gonna go get on facebook to take my mind of it...

--ashleegrace

ohmypoptarts!

haha do u like my heading?
anyways...
i have just found out that i have the most amazing best friend in the world.
read this.

first...
the urban dictionary definition of ashlee:

'Ashlee. spelled with two E's for a reason. an Ashlee, not to be confused with an Ashley, is no goodie two-shoes or poser. she goes against the grain and may not fit in with any certain clique, but she sets the trends. a possible social outcast, but very dependent, very desireable.'

but now...
my best friend carleigh's definition of ashlee:

'That was what the urban dictionary said, but it is WRONG!!! This is my definition, from carleighboo's mind. Ashlee. One who is beautiful inside and out. Is always there for someone in need. Is a great friend and sometimes words cannot express how amazing she is. She is very smart and knows how to take care of herself. She is one of the very best people you will ever meet, and if you don't know an Ashlee Grace Taylor Brown then you are definately missing out and should get to know this chicka! PS... she also knows how to live life and have fun!
Love, Carleigh.'

i swear she is the sweetest person i've ever known.
best friends are the greatest.
and i'm so glad i have her =]

love,
--ashleegrace

ugh!

i feel horrible.
i went home early from school today.
at first it was because i was coughing,
but now i feel even worse.
im still going to church tonight,
which could be kind of... interesting.
lets just say asprin is now my best friend.
=]

--ashleegrace

school...

is officially the biggest waste of my time.
why go to class to learn something that i learned in 6th grade?
ugh...
if only my mother had let me skip a grade...
but no...
they thought i would be a social outcast...
which i kind of am now...
so it really wouldnt have mattered =/
oh well...
im stuck.
and bored.
farewell.

--ashleegrace

hmmm...

after reading earlier posts, i'm starting to feel bad.
i've just realized that i miss becca.
but after our rocky past, i thought i would never be friends with her again.
could it be possible that i made a mistake?
that i could have saved a very dear friendship?
people change right? i hope so.
but is forgiveness an option?
i have a feeling that God is trying to tell me something.
and i think it has something to do with saving this severed friendship.
pray for me?

--ashleegrace

wow.

for how much i love blogging, i haven't done it in forever!
so much has happened.
last summer was horrifying and completely amazing,
and this school year has been completely phsycotic.
i've lost friends, gained some,
and found out that you can't competely trust anyone but God.
oh yeah... i got a cat!!!
his name is...
PORKCHOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahaha
well, peace =]

--ashleegrace

wow!

this is my first blog in like over a year! let's just say high school is very different. 'Pero es muy facil.' haha spanish is fun. That meant 'but its very easy' but anyways...
i cant wait for summer. i have church camp, and i get to see all my friends again. and plus i cant wait to not be called a freshman anymore. i hope those little 8th graders have fun next year, because high school is nothing like i thought it would be. i really cant imagine how some of them are going to feel when they get to high school... all i can say is... just do what the upper classmen say and you'll be fine. hahahaha justkidding!
high school is great. =]

--love ashleegrace